I realized the other day that I have been choosing dispair, fear, and depression instead of life these last few months. There is life in the misdt of paying off massive amounts of debt. God has been trying to teach me that and there is life in IBS land. The other day I was praying with my housemate and realizing just what a gift this disease is to me and what it has been teaching me in the realm of taking care of myself and turning to God. I want to try to choose life again and choose to please God. I did this watercolor in my journal last night and hope to start drawing and painting for real again.
