December 30, 2009

Well, I have been gone for a long time. It is hard to keep up with a blog without a computer. Mine was stolen several months ago and I finally have the replacement. So blogging away we go. I am going to start the new year with blog. Unfortunately, the world of the internet and friends missed by forty-two 4X6 paintings that I did for Christmas. I could not scan them without a computer and now they are all given away. So, it is time to do more art because I have a secret goal for the next two years. God has got me in a place of resting and waiting and I need to do some music and art while I am here. So let's hear it for the beginning of 2010 and a new start with a new computer. I will have a really fun abstract up tomorrow for New Year's Eve that I did a couple of days ago.

To Please God, Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I realized the other day that I have been choosing dispair, fear, and depression instead of life these last few months. There is life in the misdt of paying off massive amounts of debt. God has been trying to teach me that and there is life in IBS land. The other day I was praying with my housemate and realizing just what a gift this disease is to me and what it has been teaching me in the realm of taking care of myself and turning to God. I want to try to choose life again and choose to please God. I did this watercolor in my journal last night and hope to start drawing and painting for real again.

Sunglasses, Friday, August 28, 2009

So I have this problem that I will not do art until the conditions are ideal which means the perfect supplies, lots of time, and the right environment. This is very mad for me because this rarely happens. So I am trying to break myself of this habit, my first step is to draw from random places where I am always with whatever I have around which often means my black (not waterproof, but acid free) pen and my sketchbook journal. My first attempt, my office during a break. I drew my sunglasses. These are lovingly refferred to as my migraine sunglasses in my community house because the first pair was bought by my house mate when I was totally being attacked by migraines and light and flourasent light was killing me. These block out all the light even on the sides; they are perfect. I wear them always, even in long meetings under flourasent lights when I am having a bad headache. My other housemate wore them the other day when she had her eyes dialated over her other sunglasses. They are huge; they fit over my glasses that is why I love them so much. So, water smears and all from my drink. Here they are.

Things to do for fun for free, Thursday, August 20, 2009

So I have been depressed about my tight financial situation and the fact that I have no money because I have been paying of my life of debt. But I realized today that there are so many fun things that I could be doing that I have either paid the dues for, have the stuff to do it or it is just absolutely free. I just have to kick out of this dispairing mode and do the fun stuff God has for me to do. So here goes with my list and hopes that I do some of these things. Today during lunch I went for a great walk in nature and saw two beautiful butterflies.

Go Workout at the Gym

Swim at the Pool

Take Lucky for a Walk

Paint something

Play with Paint

Color in my coloring Books

Draw Something or someone

Go to the Zoo and sketch

Cook something new with stuff I already have

Clean the kitchen, my room, the yard, whatever

Take a bath

Dance to fun music

Read

Watch a TV show on my gift from God computer

Watch a movie on my computer

Play with the kids

Sword fight with Elliott

Go to the Zoo and just watch the otters play

Call a friend

Talk to God in the hammock

Memorize a passage of scripture

Drink Tea

Put on Lotion

Put on Makeup and believe I am someplace fancy with God just in my own house

Play Guitar Classical or Acoustic or get really brave and play both the same day

Rub Lucky or Daisey

Brush Lucky and give her a cookie

Play with Lucky

Sketch Lucky

Look at inspiring pictures on my computer

Paint one of the pictures

Start the three crazy abstracts that are in my head

Talk with a Friend over tea at my house

Call someone on the phone

Swing in the Park

Lay out in Nature

Go for a Hike

Playing with marine blue, Wednesday, August 12, 2009

I love just to play around with watercolor and I love Marine Blue by Holbien. So here is some fun.

Splashy Sunset, Monday, August 10, 2009

I love sunsets and I wanted to do this splashy sunset off of various pictures of the sunsets of the beach in San Diego where I went in 2007. I have been able to look at all my computers with my new laptop. It has been amazing how God has been providing for me and I always think of Him lovingly providing for me when he gives me a beautiful sunset or when I actually rise early enough to see a beautiful sunrise.

All Things in Christ, Sunday, August 9, 2009

I have been battling my lies and my sin lately and God prompted me to do this little stamping page to remember that He is more powerful then the one who is in the world and I can do everything in Christ.

Spring Flowers, Friday, August 7, 2009

To honor my dad who is recovering right now and hopefully he can come see this. I have returned to the life of blogging. I have got to do something to get back into art. This is what I have been working on for the last few months. It is a full watercolor sheet 22X30. It is off of another half sheet one that I did of Falling Leaves that was similar. I am not going to blog everyday, but now that God has graciously given me a computer. I guess I could do some blogging. I miss it anyway.

Guitar Break, Sunday, May 3, 2009

I have been doing a lot of thinking about this blog lately. One of my house mates asked the other day how it was going and if it was becoming a burden (or something to that effect). I started thinking and it seems that my art life has suffered because I have been critical of everything because everything revolves around posting it here. I have not done a big piece or started a large project in a while because of it except the one for church. I have been doing a lot of sketching and small stuff, but nothing that I sit down for a few days to work on or that is bigger than my journal. I have not really played with my art either. I have also neglected one of my soul foods, music tramendously. So, I have decided to take a break and work on a painting that is just random fun. It is a full size watercolor sheet that I started months ago, but have not worked on in ages and I am going to take this month to focus on my classical guitar. I might blog here and there, but I am not going to try to keep up with the everyday thing. It just makes me crazy. So there it is. Sorry to disappoint those who watch constantly. Hope to bring you some really cool big things in the future. For now, I am going to focus on my first artistic love - Music.

Mexico Flower, Saturday, May 2, 2009

This was one of the flowers in the court yard of the condo that we stayed at in Mexico last weekend.

Take Back Life, Friday, May 1, 2009

My constant life struggle to take care of myself so I can take care of the people around me. I want to fight for my life with God and my life with work and I have to take care of myself to do that. I have been struggling to learn that. I have been sick again for over a week, and I am tired of being sick. I wish I was well, but God usually allows me to be sick for a while to slow me down and get me to be with Him and take care of myself. Perphaps one day I will learn this lesson.

The Impossiblies, Thursday, April 30, 2009

So, I was thinking that I just want to express how I feel. I would like one of the two of these to happen. I have been dreading work because we have nothing to give, nothing to offer, no money for anything and I am doing lots of extra jobs because my workers have been reassigned. So I either want the State Budget to be fixed or an endless vacation.

Doodle 4. Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Crazy week with lots of meetings, work and busy life, but I got this doodle done during one of the meetings.

Disciplines Completed, Tuesday, April 28, 2009

It is finished. My first large scale collage and stamping.

Disciplines beginning, Monday, April 27, 2009

Well this is the starts of my painting. I did ink jet transfers with whiskey and made the house smell like a bar. My pastor came in and was wondering what was going on as his wife explained that I was painting with whiskey. I then put in the watercolor around it. I am going to do some stamping on it to finish it up, but that will be another day. It is a full watercolor sheet on hot press so it is hard to get a good picture of it.

Fellowship, Sunday, April 26, 2009

Our church is big on fellowship and eating together and I could not talk about the discplines we do without including this one. I like who this photo altered because it looks retro.

Worship, Saturday, April 25, 2009

I really like who this altered because it makes the figures so annymous it could be anyone of us. It is really my friend Emily Lewis who really worships God with her entire body. I love to watch her, ecspecially when she dances for Him.

Sue, Friday, April 24, 2009

As you read this, I will be headed to Rocky Point. My blessed friends have decided to treat me to a vacation. I cannot thank them enough. So, I decided to post some things I have been working on for a altered image painting for our church open house. I took a bunch of pictures and altered them in photoshop and the next few days are the pictures that I liked the most. This is my first attempt at this, so it is not a lot of altering.

Flower, Thursday, April 23, 2009

Little splashy flower from a cholla with watercolor.

Doodle 3, Wednesday, April 22, 2009

This is a doodle that I did at work on a conference call.

Prairie Dog, Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Another sketch from the Desert Museum. I just love the little fat prairie dogs out their. They just sit and watch everything. After doing a quick sketch of this one, I thought it actually looks mad and it did not in real life. Just resolute to sit and be content.

Ocotillo, Monday, April 20, 2009

The Ocotillo are in bloom. I love the Ocotillo when they are in bloom because they look so desolate and barren, but they are really not. They are alive and fruitful and when the red blossoms pop out you know that they truly are ALIVE.

Desert Museum, Sunday, April 19, 2009

This is a watercolor sketch from the Museum looking out one of the major view points. It is always a good challenge for me to paint in public because people come up and talk to me and ask me questions and watch me, ecspecially children. I had two couples commenting on this one while I was doing it and battling the wind that kept blowing up my paper in my journal. Note to self: Binder Clips

Moving Wolf, Saturday, April 18, 2009

It was suggested by my spiritual dad to go sketching at the zoo on Friday, and I went to the Desert Museum instead. Very close to the same thing, but a little more of an adventure. This was the wolf that kept moving and passing around.

Lady Sculpture, Friday, April 17, 2009

This is a sketch of a sculpture that my house mate Julie made and gave me several years back. I like the lady a lot and look at it frequently. Julie said that the sculpture reminded her of me and my recovery in life. As I walk down this path of life and walk with other people and new people down this path of life, I think of this picture often as I see new people begin the long journey of healing and life and opening up and exposure. And then as I find myself on the edge of a new cliff with God, I find myself back in this point again at times before I take that leap and burst off the edge.

Dancing Mannequin, Thursday, April 16, 2009

Quick Sketch, this has been a nonstop week with sickness floating through the house.

Hand, Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Quick sketch of my hand. I am working through the projects in the book "Keys to Drawing." Many of the projects I have done before in my very first art class, but it is fun to do them again. This is one of them. It is an interesting brain experience to draw your hand from this angle.

Life Collage, Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I used to collage more than I do now. I thought of a collage of my life and what life is now for me and embracing life. This is how it turned out.

Shoes, Monday, April 13, 2009

My shoes that I really like because they are so comfortable. Done with a brush pen. I love the brush pen a lot.

Lucky, Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter!!! Here is a sketch of my dog, Lucky.

Guitar, Saturday, April 11, 2009

My guitar. I actually played it the other day. I am going to try to play it more regularly again.

Giraffe Mingle, Friday, April 10, 2009

My housemate Sue says this looks like a Giraffe. I think she is right.

Primary Mingle 2, Thursday, April 9, 2009

More playing.

Opera Pink Mingle, Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Playing around with watercolor again. These are my two favorite alternative colors. Opera Pink and Sap Green.

Doodle 2, Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Another doodle, the checker board idea is a big theme in my doodles. It always has been. This started as a little doodle and then expanded across half the page.

Doodle 1, Monday, April 6, 2009

I realized today that I used to Doodle a lot during meetings, but I have not in a really long time. I did this doodle in my meeting today with work. It kind of looked like a woman so I added the little face at the end.

Stool, Sunday, April 5, 2009

One of the stools in the kitchen of our house. I drew as my friend Susan visited the house with her baby Alice.

Daisey, Saturday, April 4, 2009

The house children's dog Daisey. She moved in the middle of me trying to get a quick drawing of her.

Medicine Box, Friday, April 3, 2009

My life revolves around medicine most of the time to keep my head balanced and let me sleep and function like a normal human being. I have two of these medicine boxes, one for the morning and one for night.

Kleenex, Thursday, April 2, 2009

Crazy day with lots to do. I got this kleenex box drawn last night with gel pens.

Daffodil, Wednesday, April 1, 2009

These daffodils are in the living room of our house. I drew one of them with gel pens. It was a fun little experience. Sorry that I forgot to post the picture. Here it is!!!

Egg Beater, Tuesday, March 31, 2009

This is a little Egg Beater in the kitchen that the kids play with. It is more for decoration then actually utility. I did this with gel pens on black paper.

Garden Shovel, March 30, 2009

I keep wondering if I should attempt a garden again this year. I forgot to water it most of the time last year and it bore flowers but no vegetables. I drew the garden shovel instead. It went off the page, maybe that is a sign that it wants to be used.

Bursting Heart, Sunday, March 29, 2009

I had this image that I have boxed up my heart after being wounded by the last person I dated and it is trying to burst out. It has been successful at getting out here and there with my sexuality and with being a woman, but I have been still keeping it behind bars and boxing it up most of the time. I think the fear that I talked about in an earlier blog has a lot to do with the fact that I am trying to hide away and protect myself. So as I branch out in my art and as a woman and try to conquer down my fears, I will try to let my heart out of this box.

Delicate Flower, Saturday, March 28, 2009

God has been talking to me about being a delicate flower and taking care of myself. I had this vision of myself as a purple flower surround by rocks and gravel. Here it is 4X6 watercolor

Blue and Red Mingle, Friday, March 27, 2009

Another mingling of watercolor

Purple and Orange Mingle, Thursday, March 26, 2009

Purple and Orange watercolor mingling of colors.

Primary Mingle, Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I was doing these watercolor wet on wet washes to see how colors reacted to each other. The next few days are the results.

Black and White Cat, Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I usually come home and clean the kitchen. I am thinking of coming home and doing a sketch. Today I came home and drew this cat. Had some issues with the head, but it was fun with the gel pen.

Chimenya, Monday, March 23, 2009

I realized as I was thinking about drawing yesterday that I have been living out of a lot of fear lately. Fear of my body doing wacky things. Fear of eating the wrong thing. Fear of living. Fear of dieing. Fear of losing weight. Fear of not losing wight. Fear of being noticed. Fear of not being noticed. Fear of painting. Fear of drawing. Fear of using someone elses computer or asking even though they have told me I could. So I decided to draw this yesterday and reinstitute this blog. I am going to be gone some this week so I am going to post some things I have done over the past several weeks that I have not posted. But I am going to choice to fight for my life and me and my art. So here goes.

Barren, Tuesday, February 11, 2009

Watercolor, stamping and sticker

Will It Return, Monday, February 10, 2009

I have not played guitar in a long time. I keep wondering if I will ever get back into do it.